May 10, 2018 FORGIVENESS

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There is a big hole -
It is in the heart’s middle.
I have left you out.

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You have hurt me deep.
So, with crossing my arms tight –
I hold you far off.
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To protect myself –
And also, to punish you
As undeserving.
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What am I thinking -
In casting you off from me –
split is created.
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Deficient of whole -
Lacking the continuum –
We all suffer deep.
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In forgiving you –
I free myself for healing
And we can both fly.
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The blue period of Picasso now and again draws me in. The suffering inherent in the pieces created during this time is heart lowing. When I ‘studied’ Picasso back in the day, it was this period that did and still today most draws me to rumination. Was it personal suffering or observation of suffering, separation and isolation in others that drew him in as voyeur to slices of life?
With gratitude for those who through word or image create openings, whereby we can see and then have the opportunity to heal the breaking heart.

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BE LOVE

Bathed in the love
Not just forgetting past hurts
-having no import.

Gifted to be in a space where all is LOVE.
At any moment you can choose to turn to this love. Those you think have wronged you – at any moment you can choose to turn to wholeness – to holiness. Another name for this turning is: forgiveness. The surprise is we are not just setting ‘the other’ free – we are setting ourselves free also.
There is a love that transends our limited human experience.
We have chosen those we walk with here - just so we can create the opportunities where WE can melt into This Love. This ‘burning off of karma’ concept brings with it the idea that suffering is a necessary component for our unfolding into beauty and balance. This is not quite accurate. At any time we can choose the easy way. We just uncross our arms – which have been covering our hearts – allow the heart full sway.
Do not wait for the other to take the first step. You are stronger than you think. With fortitude of good heart, accept and be love. 

Painting of Two Hearts by Jim Dine

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